Flying by the seat of one’s pants!!
I learn of the final exam the day before it (my tutor forgot to tell me!?)
Enjoy the perks of lost-in-translation: “see you at 10:30, warmed up” is not “see you at 10:30, to warm up”. I swoop in, sweaty from the walk, and the panel asks – are you ready? Why, YES, of course! Something good told me to warm up at home…
A rocky first verse or two with that husky morning voice – vocal chords a little too loose for the bright timbre required. Then, I sing my heart out, soaring to the mountains beyond the leaves, through arching phrases, sexy ornaments and cheeky rhythms, through lush floating vowels and cutting consonants, endeavoring to apply everything I have learned this year… all in a few moments, a few couplets, AND with feeling, please!
Today’s offering, offered.
Some tunes require such a delicious balance of strength and suppleness, such a blend of light and dark, that I feel like I am on a tightrope, and in love. I get that this ‘search’ will last all my life – like ‘the search’ for the perfect wave that surfers devote themselves to, without expecting to, or needing to, actually ever find it… the process itself is the magic.
The luminous smile on my teachers face says she is proud enough.
What a crazy experience. A whole year singing old folk songs in Bulgarian dialects! Why does this music and language grow on me like this? My love and admiration has only deepened… and I feel, somehow, carried by the daily challenge.